Get My Head Straight

My life and career have been both relatively short. 21 years with the same agency and 43 years on the Planet Earth, but I feel as if I have hit the wall, not as much in my life as I feel like I have hit the wall in my career. After 21 years, I feel unfulfilled and lacking the feeling of acomplishment. I am in law enforcement, but in my positions over the last couple of years, have left me felling anythong but like a law enforcement officer. Add to this equation, the fact that I am a supervisor, and you can pretty much remove any enforcement activities from my plate. I am a highly paid, Federal paper pusher. A high-priced daycare manager, overseeing a bunch of over-paid primadonna law enforcement officers. I long for being back in the street, field operations, making arrests, following up on leads, doing surveillance, pounding the pavement. I am going to take a couple of days off naext week, to spend some time with myself and do some things I've been meaning to do. Photography, writing, relaxing, not being on the job, will be the priorities. I want to get things straight in my head, step back away from work and responsibilities and see if I can get a new perspective. I don't feel like anything right now, just numb, dumb, and unproductive.
I will be hanging around some old haunts and watering holes, some new ones too. During the day, I want to get some of those artistic activities done. L.A. has a lot of architecture to be shot. I want to see if I can put together a book, with nothing but historic Downtown L.A. buidling facades. See if I can get together with the one thing I have been chasing for a while, but put my heart into this time. After all, it is the, "One Thing," that is the key to life.

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